I’m Not Exactly Sad
I’m not exactly sad
I don’t know what the words are to explain this feeling I have
I’m just tired I can’t seem to motivate myself or give a damn
I stay in bed all day and I’m up all night
I’ve tried to fix it and I can’t and you know that’s alright
I’m not exactly sad
I just feel kind of empty and secluded from the world
I’m just bored and it seems like my friends are busy and I feel unheard
Then again that’s my fault because I don’t know how I feel so how can I explain it
I have all these plans and goals that I’m trying to make real but it’s hard to do that when I can’t move
I’m not exactly sad
I just feel really stuck and it’s not that I want to die
I want to be alive
I’m not exactly sad
I’m just beating myself up over the things I haven’t accomplished
Instead of focusing on the things, I can accomplish now
I’m mad at myself for taking care of myself and taking time to myself
But Why?
I’m not exactly sad
But I’m waiting for change to happen instead of making it myself
Because I’m scared of what would happen if I stopped and took time to myself
But I’m not exactly sad
I’m just waiting to be okay.
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Jill Asprey • May 20, 2021 at 9:44 am
This resonates with so many students and adults!
Lesa Neff • May 20, 2021 at 9:08 am
Love this, it totally captures the uncertainty of this period of time.